I’m sitting out on my newly-done patio that I happened to come home to one day.. (yeah my family’s still doing that.) All the grass is gone and replaced w/pebbles, plants, and a stone pathway leading to… the end of my property and into my neighborhoods shared backyards…nice. It’s actually quite beautiful and I wish I could spend more summer nights here… but the season’s ending and a new one’s beginning.
There’s a fresh breeze blowing my hair out my face and letting the sunlight graze my eyelashes. The temperature is perfect. I’m wearing a cute summer dress w/a light sweater hanging on the back of my chair for when the sun moves and gives way to the chills of the shadows. I can see the wind through the pink plants I told my family I didn’t want, through the flow of my purple curtains behind the screen door leading into my house. I can hear it in my neighbor’s outdoor decor, chiming over my latest musical obsession my friend introduced me to that takes me back to the best times of my life. I smell Christmas as the aroma my winter candle (given to me by a student last year and taken out during a power outage a few nights ago), rises through the new red lantern I bought on sale from Target. It pervades my senses. The sky is richly blue and the clouds are patterned in swirls that almost make you dizzy if you stare at it long enough.
The beaming rays remind me of these past summer days walking in the city, stopped at an intersection watching the lights and waiting to cross - that moment when I gaze up to the sky and I close my eyes for just a second of time, taking a deep inhale then letting out a soft breath as my face lights up and forms a smile. I open my eyes, the soft smile still shining, then look forward and keep walking. Sometimes there is another’s hand in mine and I look over my shoulder into their vision not saying a word… but knowing those piercing eyes glance back at me with an unspoken understanding of what I’m feeling at that small, seemingly insignificant city moment.
There are so many moments, so many things I’ve gotten to experience and learn from this summer that I can write about in such detail. My friend recently asked me how I remember so many things so clearly and I told her it was because they were probably very memorable for me so they stay with me for as long as I want it to.
Well, fall is nearing and summer is clearing and with that comes a close of a season, an end of a chapter, and the beginning of another story. These moments I hold on to so dearly will become a long remembered past but they’ll stay w/me always and I’ll think of them at times when I’m reminded.. and I’ll smile in the same way I did in the city. I’ll never forget the people, the places, the moments - the feelings. Some I’ll see and experience again someday, some maybe not. What’s important to realize is that I felt. Things in life don’t last forever - even feelings - but sometimes they can in your heart, in your soul, in your inner being.. as memories that will transcend time.
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